What a dream..

Is it really a dream or a nightmare? Sighs.

I don't know why I dreamt of it that way- but it hurts. My heart hurts thinking that it could be true. But confirming it is much scarier.

I'm writing about this here in my notes right now so I won't forget. So I won't forget that vivid handsome image of him and his fluffy hair and boyish smile while talking in the camera, wearing a three-piece black suit and the background showing the airport. Ah, and who would have thought that the girl waiting for him that time is his ex in highschool (I'm not gonna mentioned her name because.. well just because.) being pretty and all... Until the scene changed into the two of them- hugging and... kissing... And wow. It freakin' hurts.

My dream was doing well at first so I don't know why that happened. I don't even want to know the reason because what if it's a sign? What if it's a sign for me to check on my account and talk to him even though it doesn't really make sense because what do I even want to tell him- and it's not like he has something to tell me... right?

I don't know.

It might be a dream but it's scary. I don't even love him anymore so it's weird that I'm feeling like this.

I hate it.

I hate to admit it but I kind of missed him.